Feel free to skip today. I am in a bad mood, exhausted and wishing I was still in bed for the next foreseeable future.
Sunday night, my son and I went to buy groceries. Came home, put them up and cleaned the kitchen a little. I had gotten everyone a drink, so I went to find my mom to give her hers. She wasn't at her desk. I asked "where's mom?" No one knew. Wait a few minutes, go out there again. No mom. Ok, this is weird. I look in the back yard, the rest of the house and there is only one place she could be. I knocked, no answer. My son opened the door and she was laying on the floor unconscious She came to, but I made her go to the hospital. They of course cannot find any reason for this. She has congestive heart failure and Raynaud's syndrome. They have her on so many drugs right now that she stays dizzy and nauseous all the time.
And, yesterday would have been my grandmother's 90th birthday. She's been gone almost 4 years now and not a day goes by that I don't think about her and miss her. I took off a half day yesterday and just stayed in my room. My mom slept most of the day, so I would go check on her, but other than that, I wanted to be alone.
We were supposed to have gone to an Oakland A's game. I just couldn't do it. I didn't want to be around people. And being a Texas girl, it wouldn't be the same as going to a Rangers game anyways.
Maybe tomorrow I will be back to the regularly scheduled program, today I still need to wallow in self pity and sadness. I miss her.
Sunday night, my son and I went to buy groceries. Came home, put them up and cleaned the kitchen a little. I had gotten everyone a drink, so I went to find my mom to give her hers. She wasn't at her desk. I asked "where's mom?" No one knew. Wait a few minutes, go out there again. No mom. Ok, this is weird. I look in the back yard, the rest of the house and there is only one place she could be. I knocked, no answer. My son opened the door and she was laying on the floor unconscious She came to, but I made her go to the hospital. They of course cannot find any reason for this. She has congestive heart failure and Raynaud's syndrome. They have her on so many drugs right now that she stays dizzy and nauseous all the time.
And, yesterday would have been my grandmother's 90th birthday. She's been gone almost 4 years now and not a day goes by that I don't think about her and miss her. I took off a half day yesterday and just stayed in my room. My mom slept most of the day, so I would go check on her, but other than that, I wanted to be alone.
We were supposed to have gone to an Oakland A's game. I just couldn't do it. I didn't want to be around people. And being a Texas girl, it wouldn't be the same as going to a Rangers game anyways.
Maybe tomorrow I will be back to the regularly scheduled program, today I still need to wallow in self pity and sadness. I miss her.
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4 comments:
Aww, I'm sorry, hon. Take some time and feel better. *hugs*
I'm sorry about your grandmother and your mom. Feel better.
My Grandma was one of my favorite people ever. I still dream about her a lot and miss her very much.
I'm sorry about your mom. I will keep her in my prayers.
Go Rangers. :)
I came by to thank you for commenting on my blog. I don't know how I've missed following you all this time.
I have some catching up to do but first...wallow away. We all have days like the one you're having. Between missing your grandmother and worrying about your mom, you're certainly entitled.
I also just wanted to say that your progress has been just amazing! I've gone back and read through most of your blog and it truly is fantastic!
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